i am fully aware of that and quite frankly i don't want to be reminded every single bloody time the "20th" of each month comes up, you just make me feel like pure and utter shit. do you enjoy that? is my life a joke to you?

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we had a good relationship don't get me wrong but, there is no way that i am looking back at my past, my past has brought nothing but pain and misery to my life. i would much rather forget than be reminded 6/7 times and end up crying every month.. thank you very fucking much. you have no clue to what i think or feel so stop trying to drag my past up at every chance you get.