I don't know how else to get this around I've already apologised to each and everyone of them personally, but I just want to say sorry to every single person in my family I have against me right now, I'm sorry for everything that has happened in the past few weeks, I know I'm in the wrong, but I promise I'm changing for all of you, you don't deserve all the shit I've been giving, you've done so much to keep me here and I've gone and thrown it all away, I'm great ful for everything you've all done, I might not show it but I really am, I know yesterday was so hard for you all, but thankyou for giving me one last chance, I promise I won't mess up this time, I can't take back what's already happened, unfortunately what's done is done, but I promise I'll never do anything like that ever again, I'm changing, lt will take time, but I know I'll get there, you just need to believe me, I'm so sorry, I hope you can all regain my trust and forgive me, I understand if you don't, and I do realise it'll take a while before we all gain trust, I know I've said in the past 'I'll change' but this time I really mean it, this is the last chance I have I might never see any of you ever again if I don't do this, I'm doing it for you, all of you, I don't want to lose you, I will stick by the punishments I have coming my way, it's what I deserve, but I'm doing it to stay with you, I don't want it to end like this, I'm sorry :( x