of course I can't do that. I mean you know I just can't be like "yeah that's right I have depression" and just go with it. I didn't just went through depression, it was more like a war. I went through self harming, I had a very low self esteem and I even had body image issues. I used to cry myself every single day to sleep, fake smiling every day and harmed myself every day thinking it would take the pain away, but in reality it didn't. looking back at it I actually don't know why did i do that to myself at such a very young age but maybe in that time I had my reasons that I had no choice but to do it. so just to answer clearly to your question, it was more like a war to me than just depression.