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**WARNING LONG RANT**
To be honest yes. I ran just about every time and lost every time. I wanted to be on Student Council because in my life I've been in many sports (I know what you're thinking, "This fat ass played sports") Yes, I was on the Dance Team in seventh grade at my old school. I was alone with no friends on the team and half the girls hated me (probably bc I had better high kicks and could actually go all the way down on my splits) but I didn't quit, not once. Then I moved to Michigan and transferred schools and it was too late to join in eighth grade. Come freshman year I joined Cheerleading football season and quit after two practices bc I didn't want to give up my summer for cheer. Come basketball season of cheer and I got on the team again, halfway through the season I got into a car crash and missed a game the next day due to back problems. The following week I skipped cheering at a basketball game to get ready for the Winter Formal (lame but I looked decent at least), so I got kicked off for missing two games. Then comes sophomore year and I signed up for the Bowling team and swore to myself that I wouldn't quit. At first it was fun and I wasn't too terrible, but then everyone started getting better and better, and I felt I was getting worse and worse. I never got over an 80 while bowling and that made me feel super shitty about myself, so I stopped going to practice and eventually quit. I'm in drama and there's been times that I've wanted to quit bc I didn't think I was good enough for improv or I was tired of getting shitty roles in the plays. There hasn't been one thing that I've joined that I haven't quit. I'm afraid to get a job bc I'm afraid I'll quit. I'm just afraid of not being good enough so I quit everything I guess.
But with Student Council I wanted it to be different. I wanted to get on it and stick with it bc it's something I genuinely wanted to do. I was going to run for president but decided against it. So I ran for Class Representative. I lost and that crushed me, but I went to Mrs. B's room and picked up a Vice President form. I wanted to win this one. I was determined. But come today seventh hour when it was announced who won and it wasn't me, I was crushed again. This was something that I wanted, something that I was willing to work for. So yes, I am upset that I didn't get on Student Council, but that doesn't mean that I'm not going to try again next year. (And I'm sorry if you just wasted half your life reading this only to realize it's not important but I don't care, it's important to me)

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