in my opinion don't do it there are alot of other things that you can do like watch movies that make you laugh play video games or something do something that you love to do like me I love football and I'm on the cms football team I love but people self harm themselves don't do it there are many people who truly care about some that you know and some that I might not know at all God made who you are and he doesn't want you to change who you are always be yourself never change who you are