the problem is you never actually healed, you just kept distracting yourself till you forget about it then you wonder why you're back at the hole again.

my childhood trauma didn't make me stronger, it made me a people pleaser, it made me not speak up when i'm supposed to, it made me an overapologizer, it made me a perfectionist and it made me have low self-esteem.

i’m sad and mostly tired of fighting my own mind every single day.