youre gonna be 30 soon. thoughts on life progress so far?
seems real, magical, ephemeral, glad i documented a lot of it in writing & art, glad i survived past 25, glad i experienced an earnest instance of 'falling in love' & got over the societally programmed 'fear of death' p early in the process, glad i cultivated an active rather than diversionary process of dealing w trauma & achieved a feeling of contentedness that mostly overpowers suicidal ideation, glad i formed strong friendship, pedagogic, & familial bonds, glad i resisted falling prey to most major institutional control systems, glad i did five dried grams of psilocybin mushrooms in silent darkeness, sad i hurt ppl i care abt, sad i lost ppl i cared abt, feel overwhelmed by the amnt of trauma & severe discontent that seems intrinsic to the experience, looking forward to potentially 'falling in love' again