Social anxiety since there are some people who have never had anxiety before and they can’t seem to understand why a person isolates themselves in public, hardly ever smiles with confidence, looks around anxiously and has a hard time speaking up in public. I always kept to myself in high school yet I was accused of giving people dirty looks, was always socially awkward and preferred to be in the library rather than sitting in the cafeteria while looking around and having people complain about my “staring problem”. If people were more familiar with social anxiety and tried to be more understanding towards those who struggle with it, perhaps those with social anxiety would feel more comfortable being the way that they are, knowing that others wouldn’t read them wrong or possibly misunderstand their intentions so easily. It would also be amazing if teachers at schools didn’t take points off for those who have social anxiety and can’t seem to speak up because they’re extremely nervous just thinking about giving a speech/presentation and are constantly on edge because they feel as if they’re always in the spotlight.
It feels better than winter but I prefer summer over any other season because I get a break from school work and enjoy swimming outdoors. It doesn’t feel like spring as much as it feels like fall where I live and it doesn’t really make me feel any kind of way except happy to get these classes over with.
I used to eat healthier and was in better shape physically but at some point I stopped caring about my health and am now currently more interested in eating sweets and junk food compared to healthy foods. Even tho I’m not as healthy, I still eat salads whenever I can (meaning when there’s ready to eat pre-washed lettuce in the fridge due to being too lazy to wash them myself), meat, rice every so often, and of course, lots of sweets/sugary beverages. I go through periods of losing some weight and gaining them right back as a result of living a sedentary lifestyle and my love for sugar.
I have someone in mind but I’m not quite sure about them yet considering we hardly ever spoke in the past and for me to consider spending the rest of my life with them, we must be able to communicate and be compatible friendship wise first.
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My family and I received flowers from a guest that came over our house a few weeks ago but I personally never received flowers that were just for me 💐
I guess it’s how he reacts when you unintentionally do something that ends up disappointing him such as being too silent around him when he expects you to talk (for instance) and him then choosing to spread baseless rumors about you or talking badly behind your back, clearly taking advantage of how silent you are, indicating he has bad character and isn’t mature. If he’s always polite and doesn’t jump to conclusions and/or doesn’t have a tendency to make negative assumptions about you and then later make others go against you because of those assumptions, he’s a good guy. If you find yourself being confused about his intentions every so often while also being gaslighted, talked badly about when you’re not around him, being used, realizing how dishonest and/or disrespectful he is towards you and others as well, and if you notice him being inconsiderate of your thoughts/feelings every so often, he’s clearly not the good guy he may try to portray himself to be.
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No, at least not yet. I do wear glasses but I hardly ever wear them unless I’m working with my dad on my school assignments and have to look at the computer screen from a distance. I don’t think they look good on me at all.
I do actually but that’s not my number one priority at the moment. I want to get engaged and possibly spend the rest of my life with someone but it doesn’t look like that’s going to happen anytime soon and because of that, I don’t feel motivated to do anything these days since it’s all I ever seem to think about. Even tho I’m not physically disabled, I do suffer from depression, social anxiety, and OCD so it’s hard for me to focus on the bigger picture when I’ve got these problems that always seem to get in the way of me from living my life to its fullest. Being a dedicated person who has their priorities straight will get you somewhere in life, even if it doesn’t get you to the point where you work a 9 to 5 job on a regular basis. I wish I didn’t worry about the things I can’t control or force but here I am worried about the things that should come or occur naturally but I don’t have the patience to wait for “the one” to show up years later. I just want to live a life where I’m no longer always in my room and make my parents proud for once.
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I think it’s usually the fear of failure or anxiety that holds one back from pursuing their goals/dreams. I know this because I’m usually afraid of taking action/the first step due to the fear of making a mistake and failing or because I’m a perfectionist who has an all or nothing kind of mindset. I would tell them to take the first step, even if the desired outcome doesn’t end up happening anytime soon and even if you do a poor job at what it is that you were attempting to do. Mistakes and/or not doing good enough should encourage/motivate a person to continue trying rather than giving up and missing out on good opportunities in the future as a result.
I normally don’t like country music but I do like the majority of Morgan Wallen’s songs :)
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