What is the happiest moment you remember in your life?
I hate that I'm struggling to remember. Happiness is a very fluctual and subjective thing, I've had some really great things happen to me and I did feel happy, but like, not crazy happy. Ya know? It's always been my dream to ride an elephant, at the moment of doing it I wasn't all that happy and excited, but thinking about it the memory makes me happier than the actual event, but that's just an example. Maybe the happiest I've been was when my ex agreeing to be my girlfriend, I remember laughing and jumping and being all euphoric, but the memory of it makes me sad instead. Maybe the happiest I've been was my last day in the U.S, my friends from so many different stages of my last 5 years were there to see me one last time, my friends from all my different social circles met for the first time and it did make me feel special seeing that many people who were just there for me. Don't know if it's really the happiest, I don't tend to process that happiness right away. All I know is I was smiling in the pictures that came out the night after, like a real smile, I never smile when taking pictures because I always say I refuse to fake a smile so I prefer to make stupid faces instead. Maybe it was right after I presented in the Academic Symposium at my uni, the presentation went extremely well and so many professors and academics walked up to me telling me how impressed they are with the presentation, and also seeing how proud was the professor who nominated me (looking back I cringe because I looked awkward as hell, I should never have clean-shaved and it doesn't help that the picture they put up on Twitter was so unflattering it haunts me and I want to destroy all evidence it existed). Maybe it was every moment I spent with my nieces, my niece would cry with me around the room but now she's my evil henchman. I dunno, I'm going on tangents at this point, I don't even know what I'm talking about. I could have made this small, short, and brief but I'm bored as hell and I actually stopped typing this hours ago and I'm not really sure if I should actually put it up or throw it away, but I'm too lazy to do that so fuck it.
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