What have you learned to accept??
Why do they always leave? Why are they the ones who get to leave me and not the other way round? Is there something wrong with me? Is there some curse on my life that pushes the people I love away? Maybe yes
So I believed. I walked around feeling guilty for all the relationships that went bad. I didn’t believe anybody could love a faulty creation like me. I became a sad person. No compliment would do even if it came from the deepest pit of love. My mind was made up—I’m the one who is wrong. I deserve no love because eventually….I would push the people I love and who loved me back away.
I lost self-esteem. I hated myself. I didn’t see anything good to be loved about myself. I became paranoid. When things were going right in my life I began to panic. I knew good things were just but shadows and they’ll end soon when darkness falls. I didn’t deserve any good things so why would they even happen to me? All good things in my life end so quickly even before I could learn to love them fully.
This is not my story. It could also not be your story. It’s for who it is. It’s for the one going through series of rejections and taking all the blame for the things that didn’t turn out right. It is for the one hurting because of a relationship she/he invested so much in and yet ended even before it started. It’s for the one saying “I’m the one who is wrong because I’m the one they always leave for better people.
So I believed. I walked around feeling guilty for all the relationships that went bad. I didn’t believe anybody could love a faulty creation like me. I became a sad person. No compliment would do even if it came from the deepest pit of love. My mind was made up—I’m the one who is wrong. I deserve no love because eventually….I would push the people I love and who loved me back away.
I lost self-esteem. I hated myself. I didn’t see anything good to be loved about myself. I became paranoid. When things were going right in my life I began to panic. I knew good things were just but shadows and they’ll end soon when darkness falls. I didn’t deserve any good things so why would they even happen to me? All good things in my life end so quickly even before I could learn to love them fully.
This is not my story. It could also not be your story. It’s for who it is. It’s for the one going through series of rejections and taking all the blame for the things that didn’t turn out right. It is for the one hurting because of a relationship she/he invested so much in and yet ended even before it started. It’s for the one saying “I’m the one who is wrong because I’m the one they always leave for better people.