you dont deserve anthony the way you talk to him is shocking break it off whilst its in the start.
i read this sentence i had a lump in my throat and i felt like id just been stabbed. I know i don't deserve Anthony.I treat him like shit i know.Its changing.I treat him like shit because i take him for granted.Ive never felt this way before about anyone.Its like when im with him i feel alive and happy.I feel safe in his arms.When we argue i just want to sit in a corner an cry but i cant.Thats not me it takes alot to break me because ive grown stronger.Im no longer that weak and mousy caitlin anymore.Ive chaned maybe into a bitch or whatever but i don't want to feel that low and numb again.Anthony has been there for me constantly.I treat him like shit an i hate myself for it.I know i need to grow the fuck up and get a grip soon or ill lose him for good.I need to let my guard down but i cant,not yet.I don't want to be rejected or hurt so i act strong and hard.Im not giving up on him or us.Im not leaving him no matter what.I risked everything for him.The way i treat him has got to change.You must be pretty close to us if you can say that?who ar you anyway?If your reading this Anthony.Im going to change into a better person.Now anon go focus on your life instead of butting into mine.
do you hold grudges or do you fogive and forget?<3
ive never held a grudge and i dont see the point in them?unless they've killed someone etc but arguments and stuff i can get over easily i dont see a point to putting someone else trough the suspense,loneliness&pain just because our stubborn enough to do that to someone.I forgive way to easily though:')<3