Very easily. My whole life has been a disaster... I'll take the full credibility to taking it to shit but the key points which should've held me for giving a restart have gone... So all i can do now is be shit but won't ruin someone's else life. As i quote "I'll take thy shade of blackness from the known, before their world of colour starts looking faded! I'll ease your pain and making it my own, without realizing that I'm already crippling with pain".

Not at all easily

As easy as you lose interest in dying

I panic easily...? It is the worst thing I have...I shut off..
Everything... aloof myself...

To lose hope you need to have one.