jade hop

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Before you self harm in any way, you should make sure you know what youre getting into. before you make that cut, keep in mind that you will find the pain release and blood strangely addictive. youll probably think to yourself that you'll be able to control it, that you wont let it get out of hand, that you can just stick to a few small, shallow cuts here and there that wont be deep and that will heal quickly and easily. But thats where you're wrong. you cant control it, its impossible to control. it controls you. its an addiction. The cuts will get deeper, they'll scar. they'll take weeks to months to heal and years for the scars to actually begin to fade. you'll find that soon, you depend on it. you cant go more than a few days without cutting. you'll go crazy as your skin itches and burns, your hands shake, your head pounds, your vision goes blurry as you try to keep your mind off it, try to hold back from giving in. but you will. if you think you can limithe cuts to just one area of your body, you better think again. it'll spread slowly but steadily, like a deadly virus. it'll spread as you run out of skin, from your wrists to arms, past your elbows, up your shoulders down to your stomach, across your hips and waist. i hope youre prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame and guilt. even if you have been the most honest person to ever live, you will lie to your friends, family members, everyone around you who you care about. be prepared to become your own worst enemy. you'll fear yourself, your head, the urges that taunt you every minute of every day. you'll come to fear the next time you cut becos you dont know how bad it'll be. like wait for the 10 cuts to turn into 20 then 50 then 100. you'll be covered in scars and cuts. your entire life will begin to revolve around your addiction. you'll constantly be thinking about cutting, covering up your cuts, how you'll hide your blades, scissors, bobby pins & the other objects you use to destroy your body. and then..the first time that you cut 'too deep' then well, the bleeding wont stop and you're gasping, shaking, panicking, fear takes over you. you pray and hope that the bleeding will stop. your purpose wasnt to die, you wont ever go that deep again. right? wrong. You’ll go there again, and deeper, you hope someone sees and asks, so you know they care. You won’t be able to make it a day without cutting.Say goodbye to all of the things you took for granted. Shorts, sandals, tank tops, swimming in the summer, going to the beach. All of these things will be a far off memory.You’ll hate yourself, hate yourself for making that first cut that threw you into this vicious, neverending cycle. You’ll wish you never made that first cut. How to self harm. Here is where I tell you how to successfully hurt yourself; put down the blade. Know why? Because you are so much better than t

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