What is the biggest challenge you are facing right now?
oKAY READY TO GET PERSONAL AND SAD,,,,,,,,,
my grandmother stopped eating a little bit ago and she's been on a steady decline since then ): her twin brother passed away on halloween, the night we thought that she was going to go since that's the night my grandfather also passed away in 2004. we joked that if he was still alive, he would have said that he was just being a gentleman and taking her place,,,,,,but it doesn't hurt any less because of my grandmother still declining and the fact that I loved her brother so much 0": yet in some ways I'm glad that he did pass away, his body was giving out on him and he was trapped in there trying so hard to communicate. he cried when we visited him and it broke my heart,,,,,,,he was paralyzed in half of his body from a stroke and he passed away so suddenly in the hospital when he was supposed to return home on thursday. my uncle was there when it happened and he was very shaken up from it. when he called, I was so afraid that he was calling about my grandmother, I nearly cried when I heard his voice on the answering machine,,,,,,,,,,and it's so odd that the twins got sick in opposite ways. my uncle's body gave out, when it was my grandmother's lost mind that has been leading to her ultimate demise.
I wish so hard that I could just tell people what all has been going on and why I've been lurking in the shadows recently instead of actively participating. I hate holding things back, especially from the people I care about the most, but I just can't bring myself to hurt certain people by letting them know that I'm upset. they have enough going on already and they need to focus on that, not me OTL, especially if they feel others' pain as their own.
my grandmother stopped eating a little bit ago and she's been on a steady decline since then ): her twin brother passed away on halloween, the night we thought that she was going to go since that's the night my grandfather also passed away in 2004. we joked that if he was still alive, he would have said that he was just being a gentleman and taking her place,,,,,,but it doesn't hurt any less because of my grandmother still declining and the fact that I loved her brother so much 0": yet in some ways I'm glad that he did pass away, his body was giving out on him and he was trapped in there trying so hard to communicate. he cried when we visited him and it broke my heart,,,,,,,he was paralyzed in half of his body from a stroke and he passed away so suddenly in the hospital when he was supposed to return home on thursday. my uncle was there when it happened and he was very shaken up from it. when he called, I was so afraid that he was calling about my grandmother, I nearly cried when I heard his voice on the answering machine,,,,,,,,,,and it's so odd that the twins got sick in opposite ways. my uncle's body gave out, when it was my grandmother's lost mind that has been leading to her ultimate demise.
I wish so hard that I could just tell people what all has been going on and why I've been lurking in the shadows recently instead of actively participating. I hate holding things back, especially from the people I care about the most, but I just can't bring myself to hurt certain people by letting them know that I'm upset. they have enough going on already and they need to focus on that, not me OTL, especially if they feel others' pain as their own.