Ask @Krexxa:

If you could go back in time, what is one piece of advice you would give your younger self?

I'd tell myself to not be mean to the people who love and value me the most. there was a period of time where I bullied anyone who legitimately cared about me and I have so many regrets. they didn't deserve it and I would have been way better off if I hadn't pushed them away out of fear like that )":

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How much did you lurk your crushes social media before talking to them?

just a little bit! I tend to give it a quick once-over to see what type of person they are and to check if they're currently in a relationship.
if they seem mean, or if they're posting content that's inappropriate or against my beliefs, I tend to avoid them. people like that aren't really the type of people that I want to hang around so it wouldn't even be worth my time to try to get closer to them! but if they seem okay, then I'll definitely try to work up the courage to talk to them (:
if I see evidence that they're in a romantic relationship, I won't pursue a relationship with them that's anything more than friends, either. I'm not the type of person to weasel my way in between people like that since their private life is none of my business. I'm more than happy just staying friends 👌🏻

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Why are some men thin, and others fat, although they eat the same pasta?

it really depends on calories consumed vs calories expended.
everyone has a different metabolism, or the general number of calories that your body has to convert to energy in a day to maintain body functions. some people just have a very high metabolism so they convert more calories, whereas others might have a slower metabolism that doesn't convert as many.
it also depends on exercise and diet. more exercise = more calories that must be burned, while eating different numbers of calories can change how many excess calories you end up with (which are then stored in the body as fat).
so,,,,,,,,taking this into account, I'd say that I personally have a slow metabolism since I live a fairly sedentary lifestyle, therefore I don't need to eat as much to maintain body functions since I burn fewer calories. I'm still skinny and hover around 95-100 pounds because I don't eat much at all, like 1000 or less calories a day, matching my metabolism.
sometimes medical conditions can impact weight, though. for a while, I had something called lymphocytic colitis which prevented me from fully digesting my food. back then, I hovered around 80-85 pounds and I couldn't gain weight no matter what I ate. the same thing can happen with people gaining weight uncontrollably. so please don't judge others by their weight! it can sometimes be 100% out of their hands. plus,,,,,,,food is nice. if I wasn't so mentally scarred by my experience with LC, I'd probably be in a place where I'd use food to cope. so like,,,,,,,,,,,don't judge.

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What is your passion and how did you find it?

my passions are definitely genetics, drawing, and dancing (:
I discovered genetics in 2013 on chickensmoothie — a forum site for kids and teens with an in-browser drawing tool. someone made a closed species (basically,,,,,,a new, made-up species of animal that you would enter competitions for to adopt) called nannucks. they were pretty much just dogs with horns and I thought that they were cute so I began entering their contests, creating my own kennel of them, and eventually I applied to be an artist (so I could create my own nannucks for other people to adopt). I was thrilled to be accepted! at that time, there were two types of nannucks — classic, based loosely on horse genetics, and modern, based strictly on dog genetics. I was an artist for classic nannucks, and it was easy to look up photos of horses to base them on, but my favorites were moderns so I decided to learn dog coat color genetics so I could make them, too. I immediately became hooked! nannucks played such a huge role in my life, helping me find something that I was actually interested in and was good at. I really wish that they were still around, I miss those good old days! I even offered to buy them from their owner last year, but since she hasn't been online since 2015, I doubt I'll ever be able to bring them back to life again ):
as for art,,,,,,I've been drawing since I was a kid and never stopped! I don't see it as a good career choice, though, as much as I love it. there just isn't much interest in my art and I'd be making less than minimum wage. so for now, at least, it will remain a hobby.
and lastly, dancing! I got into k-pop in 2015 and immediately realized that the choreos are beautiful and amazing. these artists are so insanely talented and I absolutely love the way their movements fit their songs! I began learning some basic choreos and I thought it was fun, so I've been learning them ever since.

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What is one thing u regret

I really regret pushing away the people I care about the most, also letting people weasel their way in between my friends and I to kill our friendship.
I have a bad habit of getting close with someone, then being uncomfortable by how close we are to the point that I purposely cause a fight so I have a reason to retreat, even though I don't really want to lose them. I get scared and I panic and I act out of impulse to try and protect myself from getting hurt, but once it's all done and over, I regret doing it and it just hurts me twice as much. although I mentally hold on to my friends tightly and never forget them, it's so hard to keep them by my side without panicking.
I'm very quiet and shy so it's also easy to just fade back into the background where I came from and quietly let them go. and when someone starts to pull a friend away from me, I'll let them. I never show that I miss my friends or that I'm upset at losing them, even though I really, really am.
right now I only have four friends, one of which I can't bring myself to respond to so it's only a matter of time now until there's three,,,,,,,,,,,I wish I wasn't like this. I really, REALLY wish I wasn't like this.
there's a lot of friends that I regret letting go of. if I could have every one of them back, I would.

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What are your favorite subjects to talk about?

I love talking about everything tbh,,,,,,,,,but I really like talking about nerdy stuff like genetics (animal coat color genetics in particular), zoology, biology, astronomy, and botany (plants, plants, plants, I LOVE plants). k-pop is a big one too, especially the groups / soloists or choreographies that I like. and art, too — whether it's my own, famous artists', or my favorite artists' art, it's a lot of fun to discuss! even cute things like personality types or astrology signs are favs LOL. I just love talking in general.

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How do you handle stress??? OR stress handle's you???

I definitely don't handle stress well. I panic and can't think clearly to the point of shaking uncontrollably, crying, being physically ill, and being unable to make even the simplest of decisions.
it definitely doesn't help that I have severe anxiety to start with so I'm prone to having panic attacks. stress brings out the worst side of it for sure.
I'd say that I'm more prone to snapping and being angry when I'm stressed. when I started my new anti-anxiety meds yesterday, I was so stressed and scared that I yelled at my mom and almost hit her with our tv remote. I feel so bad about it,,,,,,,,,,,,,she was just trying to help, but it didn't seem like that at the time.
thankfully I'm doing better now, but I really scared myself with that one,,,,,,,,I'm usually not an angry person, but the new meds were stressing me out so much and it spiked my anxiety very high and I guess I just,,,,,,,,,,,,snapped. I'm definitely going to take precautions so it doesn't happen again.
I feel so much better now that I know these meds aren't going to kill me, though. hopefully they work and will calm me down so the frequency of my panic attacks and my stress level will both drop.

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