His suicide note wasn't written by him, a Syrian writter has collected sentences from his letters to his brother Theo, the only family member who accepted him, and putted all in one imaginary suicide note
Nah I do not take this even as a sided story ! Why they would wait until he became this old to kill him in that unrealistic way ! If they wanted to kill him in the first place ! Well clearly he was unstable mentally feeling-ly. he got through deep sadness and a way way worse depression than we could know ! He had painted himself more than once as u surely know through out different ages and I can say he was touched by getting old ,aging had a bad influence when it comes to him despite the other thousand reasons why !
This quote holds a lot of meanings uk great things are not always good ! And to understand it more from his perspectives as uk he was a very complicated thoughtful person just have a quick flash on his life and paintings as it is a novel the life wrote using him ! Eventually he cut his ear off and as I remember he killed himself while he was an old man ! And that would make us wondering what sadness and realization would make an old man kill himself !
لم رحلت باكرا هكذا يا جدي ! أقمت صلاة الروح في كل حين و رحلت ! كان هناك الكثير من تفاصيل الأشياء التي أود سؤالك عنها كنت دائم السفر و الشرود ارتحلت حون المتاع و تركت وسط المدينة فارغا فارغا تماما منك و مهجورا من وقع خطوات الجسد تقدم لأحمل عنك صمتك أكنت مبهما و ضبابيا بنسبة إليك يا جدي كما كنت أنت للكثير من المراثي ؟ رحلت و خلفت الكآبة على جدران الجسد و أطراف الروح و ورثت عينيك الخضراوين المائلتين إلى لون الحقيقة و الثمالة ،و الجنون، و الجحود المطلق ،و لون الرحيل، لون لا لون له، بين بين، الرمادي كنت لأقول الوداع لكني كنت خائف في حضرة المجهول . و الأمل يلقي نكاته علي و يبني ألعابه السخيفة فلم تكن لترحل كل هذا الرحيل أبدا !!!