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I'm trying to live my life to the greek standards of Arete': meaning "exellence in all things" or "Virtue"...basically "perfection"...perfection is not attainable, but it is the striving, the journey...or that "Living Quest" from which we learn our most important lessons in life.
Also, I tend to take on more than I can "handle". Does that mean i screw it all up? No...well, sometimes. But it means i really stress myself out and frustrate myself. I'm working on that thought.
I get sad, angry, upset...sometimes i just need a hug... As a friend of my mentor once said..."Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the 3 hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and Help me. Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile and see how much pain they may be in."
The bit about "the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most"...that's me. It ain't easy dealing with depressed and suicidal kids. Especially since I was one of them less than a year or so ago...
Honesty: I am very much an empath. i can feel emotion and the "color" of a person's thoughts...so when y'all are so distraught and upset that you want to kill yourselves, i can feel that pain like a physical punch to the stomach...i feel queasy and sick and get headaches. But if I can manage to get a smile back on your faces, then i feel light-hearted, loved, happy.
I've got a bit of a sliver-tongue and, when my friends are in trouble, i'll find out what's going on, one way or another.
I will fiercely defend my friends, family, and loved ones. I also take it upon myself to champion those who have no one to stand up for them...
I dunno...i feel like...i'd be "hard to handle" for anyone really...even the gal i'm kinda in love with. I hate feeling like i'm burdening others with my troubles and empathic ability...it just feels selfish, cause i know i can deal with it on my own, you know? But having someone to talk to does make it easier now and then...the best thing though...
A real hug. Long and tight and warm. I need a hug.
The last hug I had was...weeks? Maybe a month ago?
yeah. I haven't had hugz in a while...
I dunno. I might share more, if you ask more questions... so go ASK!!!
~ Wolf
Also, I tend to take on more than I can "handle". Does that mean i screw it all up? No...well, sometimes. But it means i really stress myself out and frustrate myself. I'm working on that thought.
I get sad, angry, upset...sometimes i just need a hug... As a friend of my mentor once said..."Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the 3 hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and Help me. Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile and see how much pain they may be in."
The bit about "the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most"...that's me. It ain't easy dealing with depressed and suicidal kids. Especially since I was one of them less than a year or so ago...
Honesty: I am very much an empath. i can feel emotion and the "color" of a person's thoughts...so when y'all are so distraught and upset that you want to kill yourselves, i can feel that pain like a physical punch to the stomach...i feel queasy and sick and get headaches. But if I can manage to get a smile back on your faces, then i feel light-hearted, loved, happy.
I've got a bit of a sliver-tongue and, when my friends are in trouble, i'll find out what's going on, one way or another.
I will fiercely defend my friends, family, and loved ones. I also take it upon myself to champion those who have no one to stand up for them...
I dunno...i feel like...i'd be "hard to handle" for anyone really...even the gal i'm kinda in love with. I hate feeling like i'm burdening others with my troubles and empathic ability...it just feels selfish, cause i know i can deal with it on my own, you know? But having someone to talk to does make it easier now and then...the best thing though...
A real hug. Long and tight and warm. I need a hug.
The last hug I had was...weeks? Maybe a month ago?
yeah. I haven't had hugz in a while...
I dunno. I might share more, if you ask more questions... so go ASK!!!
~ Wolf
