That's something I've never been asked before, so already I love this question. I suppose in terms of an event, as soon as I started secondary school in 1998, I was longing for the day I left, which was 5 years later. As for something I ordered, I think roughly 3 months.
This website is probably not a great place to get philosophical advice, but fuck it.Faith is a personal matter. However what faith should impact is your ability to make moral choices. Whether 'the lord' is around or not, good and evil are humanistic terms that requires no divine guidance to determine. You will be okay. You don't need to believe in a god, you just need to believe in yourself.
I bottle up my emotions and never show them is that bad?
Yes. Please seek therapy as it's not healthy to bottle things up. We think we're keeping people safe, but what we're actually doing is guaranteeing a future explosion, one which we may not be able to fix.
Do you ever worry that people might be talking about you behind your back?
Look, people will always took. Even among friends. Let's say there's three friends - X, Y, and ZX & Y will always talk about Z Y & Z will always talk about X X and Z will always talk about Y.It's life. You'll be grand.