I eventually started talking to other people that I was kind of friends with but not as close with as my old friends then I grew pretty close to them and was good friends with them for like 5 years but they were guys and none of them talk to me anymore now cuz they all got girlfriends and apparently all of them had liked me at some point (which I wasn’t even aware of cuz I was literally just friends with them and thought it was a mutual understanding and feeling) but now their girlfriends that I don’t even know don’t trust me for some reason and don’t want them associating with me so I haven’t talked to them since they each got in relationships😂