Ocean, live fish, octopi (I worked at a place where I butchered them, and to see it wiggle after it was dead was horrifying) - which is hella dumb, considering I've lived on islands the majority of my life!
What was the last present you received?
Advice. Opened my eyes to how others can perceive me.
When you feel lonely and no one is around/available what do you do?
Brood and PVP. Preferably with a nice cold beer in hand.
big boobs or small boobs?
Not a boob person. As all my guildies can attest, we're all butt people.
Who has been the most important person in your life?
I cannot rationally declare only one person. My father's top, but there's people like my friend in insomnia, who I level characters with at weird hours of the day, who's also a genuinely good person and I adore her very much. Like a sister.There's also Terran and Shadorbs, who are the cutest thing ever. Nox/Glar, countless people who love me and I need to remember that.
What is the worst gift you have ever received?
I give you a memory.For military kids, turning 10 is a rite of passage, and my father was deployed yet again. Not his fault, though. I brought home a bad test score, and Mum cancelled all celebrations "to teach me a lesson" but allowed me to get a box mix of brownies to bake myself a cake.The bitterness of the brownies, memories, self loathing, and irrational hatred is the worst gift, I think.
How can you talk so openly about your depression/bipolar?
Because if I don't talk about it, numerous others that are struggling also don't know there's someone right there with them. Because if I don't talk about it, the bad chemicals win. Because if I don't talk about it, I drown with negativity. Someone once said I was their role model, because of how open I am, and that they've seeked assistance with their depression when they were at their apex of wanting to self harm...I've lost so many people because they chose their exit. I struggle daily with thinking about things like that, but ultimately will fight and conquer this depression/bipolar disorder. I know I am loved. But the brain and the heart are disconnected and reboot's taking a while. My heart understands the love. My brain doesn't. I think that's the easiest way of putting it?
As strange as it seems, fear. I don't want to die without making my life count, so minute by minute I work at and with myself to better small things, and create a ripple effect.
I'm pretty vanilla. I tried something new food wise, and went to a convention effectively alone this past week and that's enough fun for a few weeks.
How do you surprise other people?
I don't surprise people much, but I usually make music or surprise them with something they wanted.
share any experiences where you've been bullied for liking anime
I can't really help you here because I don't watch much tbh
are you ok after everything in the last week or so ? im worried
I don't know how to truthfully answer that. I'm -going- to be okay, that's for certain.
How much of a shopper are you?
Aside from panties and food, not so much.
If you had one wish, what would you wish for?
For all of my friends and family to be happy.
How do you handle heartbreak?
A lot of alcohol, tears, bubble baths, and best friends. Only one affected me so devastatingly but it's because five years is a lot of time to devote to someone.