Me: Sometimes I want to die. Therapist: Are you feeling suicidal? Me: Not actually, but if something bad were to happen to me, I wouldn't necessarily be upset about it either. Therapist: Please explain. Me: I don't think I've the courage to actually go through the committing suicide, but if I were to be walking across the road and a car was coming straight for me, I'm not sure I'd get out of the way.