Who do you think has shaped you the most as a person?
I would love to say, my maternal figures and paternal figures but that would be lie. who shaped me the most as a person are my sisters. my soul sisters, and my actual sisters with blood relation (excluding cousins). what I mean are the soul sisters that are my friends who become family.
https://youtu.be/k8I0_9Q-hrk
(nurulhuda is singing this as she composes her thoughts into words you are reading)
these girls who become my keeper, and keep on keeping me strong, brave, bold, and resilient. these sisters who mould my armour and keep me tough.
poetically, I would call them my metal smiths. I bring a piece of metal to them because I am so weak, and delicate. they take my softness and with their strength, they carefully shape and heat my metal pieces, so that when I don the armour to go into the battle called Life, it's their love for me as a sister, that makes me stronger.
it's because they took the time to take in my vulnerability, that they know exactly how to heat my metal pieces. so when they cloak me with my battle gear and uniform, I am stronger, tougher, wiser, and more careful.
yes, I can sing praises to my soul mates who are male, but my Queens (and princesses) will forever and always be the ones who make me tough.
people tell me I am brave and amazing.
sure, but it because of my sisterhood that I am this girl that I am today.
I have a hierarchy of friends, because I do love my friends. and the tears that have rolled down my cheeks out of pure love and pride for my soul family is strengthening for me. I have to be methodological in my approach to love, because some people can take it; while I come off too strong for others.
I've been the heartbreaker and heartbroken.
it's not easy to be someone like me, but I hope, that in the long run, when I'm a grandmother, I can look back at all my struggles, and say to myself, "hey, what I did was right."
"take chances, take a lot of them. because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always end up just the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are. you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. say how you feel, always. be you, and be okay with it."
I'm learning, and we all learn along the way. what will be will find it's way: this is life.
"you don't need another human being to make your life complete, but let's be honest. having your wounds kissed by someone who doesn't see them as disasters in your soul, but cracks to put their love into, is the most calming thing in this world" – Emery Allen
it's true.
and as a daughter, student, writer, and friend, I'm trying to build a world where my children are stronger than I ever was.
so who do I think shaped me most as a person? my soul sisters. every single one of them. and they know who they are, and our sisterhood is a wonderful thing to be cherished.
image source/s: http://nurbzee.tumblr.com/tagged/reminder
http://jihadofthesoul.tumblr.com/post/109812782248/dont-ignore-it
https://youtu.be/k8I0_9Q-hrk
(nurulhuda is singing this as she composes her thoughts into words you are reading)
these girls who become my keeper, and keep on keeping me strong, brave, bold, and resilient. these sisters who mould my armour and keep me tough.
poetically, I would call them my metal smiths. I bring a piece of metal to them because I am so weak, and delicate. they take my softness and with their strength, they carefully shape and heat my metal pieces, so that when I don the armour to go into the battle called Life, it's their love for me as a sister, that makes me stronger.
it's because they took the time to take in my vulnerability, that they know exactly how to heat my metal pieces. so when they cloak me with my battle gear and uniform, I am stronger, tougher, wiser, and more careful.
yes, I can sing praises to my soul mates who are male, but my Queens (and princesses) will forever and always be the ones who make me tough.
people tell me I am brave and amazing.
sure, but it because of my sisterhood that I am this girl that I am today.
I have a hierarchy of friends, because I do love my friends. and the tears that have rolled down my cheeks out of pure love and pride for my soul family is strengthening for me. I have to be methodological in my approach to love, because some people can take it; while I come off too strong for others.
I've been the heartbreaker and heartbroken.
it's not easy to be someone like me, but I hope, that in the long run, when I'm a grandmother, I can look back at all my struggles, and say to myself, "hey, what I did was right."
"take chances, take a lot of them. because honestly, no matter where you end up and with whom, it always end up just the way it should be. your mistakes make you who you are. you learn and grow with each choice you make. everything is worth it. say how you feel, always. be you, and be okay with it."
I'm learning, and we all learn along the way. what will be will find it's way: this is life.
"you don't need another human being to make your life complete, but let's be honest. having your wounds kissed by someone who doesn't see them as disasters in your soul, but cracks to put their love into, is the most calming thing in this world" – Emery Allen
it's true.
and as a daughter, student, writer, and friend, I'm trying to build a world where my children are stronger than I ever was.
so who do I think shaped me most as a person? my soul sisters. every single one of them. and they know who they are, and our sisterhood is a wonderful thing to be cherished.
image source/s: http://nurbzee.tumblr.com/tagged/reminder
http://jihadofthesoul.tumblr.com/post/109812782248/dont-ignore-it
