Plus the depression and eating disorders and I just released one today called dysfunctional and explained what that was about but yeah I can breathe finally lol
NIGHT LASTNIGHT SITTING IN THE KITCHEN PUMPING THIS BLASTED THING BUT I DID NOT GIVE UP!!!!!!!!! I FIGURED IT OUT IN THE LAST INNING AND FINALLY GOT TO TAKE IT DOWN TO THE SEA THIS MORNING AND WOW LET ME TELL YOU IT WAS THE BEST FLOAT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!! 30 MINS OF BLISS!!!!! I GOT MY MONEYS WORTH AND MY HARD WORKS WORTH AND I WILL FOREVER REMEMBER THIS DAY SEPTEMBER 9th 2018 AS THE DAY I CONQURED THE PUBLIX PEACOCK FLOATIE!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
The other night I had such a weird dream. Remember the girl "SirLiviForYou" (Olivia) from formspring? She came onto this site and doxed me. Have you ever had a dream like that?
First off, its not a "solo" project. This is a side project that I'm very excited to share with you. I am not leaving my sisters or going anywhere. This is for anyone who wants to hear more music from me in addition to what I'm already doing with my band. We are in an excellent place as a group and that's why im finally ready to put this out and enjoy it with my family and all of you. I'm very excited to dive Into this with you guys. So now let us begin. I've been through some dark times. I cried so hard I legitimately believed I was going to give myself a heart attack. I've seen myself as worthless for the majority of my life. I've treated myself as an object, created only for the purpose of entertaining the people around me. Ive truly believed i have nothing to offer beyond my appearance and that if anyone got to know me they would become bored and leave when they realized I was not the plastic barbie doll they signed up for... I didn't use to believe in love. I thought crying yourself to sleep was normal after a certain age. I thought anyone who said they weren't depressed was just lying. I thought good men didn't exist and I was destined to either end up with a jerk or die alone. I truly believed happiness was a naive fantasy and that life was just a dark and cold wasteland. . I am now in the next chapter where things actually make sense. Where love is real and commitment and sacrifice bring fruitful rewards that create hope and purpose in my world. I could tell you something many stories of hoe I changed and why I was wrong and what lead me to where I am now. Stay tuned for that. I will tell you my whole story eventually but we must start here. . This was before things changed.. Starting September 21st, I am going to release one song every month through January. These are something of the most personal songs I've written over the last three years and I am so pleased to share them with you. The first one is called unloved and it was written at the lowest point in my life, may 2015. It will be coming out FRIDAY SEPTEMBER 21ST. . Thank you for listening. This is a piece of my heart from me to you. Handle with care.. #unlovedseptember21st
I watch my brother leave the house as I proceed to crank the thermostat up to 76 degrees in an attempt to defrost my frozen limbs from the arctic sleep I endured the night before...
Charlotte!!!!!!! That show was SO AMAZING!!!!! you guys are so precious and sweet, I haven’t felt that connected to an audience in a long time. So happy we got to share this night together. And ATLANTA I can’t wait to do this all again with to night!!!