babe if it helps, maybe try not to focus so much on your outward appearance? after all, it is the least impt part of you, all the impt stuff that makes you beautiful are on the inside. When you are healthy and happy and treating yourself well, it will naturally show on the outside.
I really wanna stop focusing on my appearance too ? But I just can't help hating my body right now...... And it's also not just appearance, but I also can't help feeling greedy and all ???? I won't give up no matter how hard it gets tho. I believe I'm near the end which is why it gets harder and harder ?