Anastasia Rowe

Oh god ill try and make it short and I'm not going to include everything because its kinda personal but her goes
When I was about 6 weeks old I ended up in intensive care because I stopped breathing and had bronchitis
After I came out of hospital ( I was in there for about 2 months) I kept going in and out of there and was basically my second home.
When I was about 6 months old, my dad kinda left me, he was only 15 when he had me so I don't blame him, I didn't see him for years after that and I don't think he meant to but he would promise to see me and then let me down when I was about 7 years old, he said a lot of stuff that he never meant he just didn't know what to do with me I guess, I see him about once or twice a year now though:)
My mum also had really bad depression and anxiety, so I never really saw her come out of her room much when I was young, she's better now though:3 it was just horrible knowing your mums always upset and you're so young that you can't even help her
My mum used to cut, and has a lot of scars on her arm, so when I was a kid people used to say to me your mum should be in a mental hospital blah blah blah and it upset me because I knew she was like everyone else but had her reasonable problems, no one really understood because we were young roughly about 9 years old haha
Nothing really happened much after that except me still going in and out of hospital but when I was 13 I met matt..he kinda messed things up I guess, when I was 14 we started going out, and of course he took my virginity and I can honestly say I loved him, I was with him for about a year, but he always used to cheat on me, lie to me and just break my heart over and over...there's a lot more stuff I would rather not say about him but that was a pretty traumatising relationship, during that time I moved in with my nan and then moved to QE, it was generally a good school, by I then got depression myself, and just never wanted to get up, I missed 6 months off school and I guess it's ruined my education, i then moved back with my mum and changed schools to isca, I self harmed a lot, people don't really understand why because well I never want to tell people, only a few people know everything:S but I'm still depressed now...but I'm happier than I used to be, I try not to be miserable but I don't know sometimes you just break, I have dan now and he makes me happy, he's perfect towards me, I can't really say there's much wrong now but things still need to be fixed, I'm obviously over matt now as well haha just saying before you all give me shit, it's not really that bad I tried to keep it simple there's a lot more stuff but oh we'll that my basic life story that I will say to people:)

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