apart from another year of remembrance of the 9/11 terrorist attack, i spent my birthday with someone outside my family that means a great deal to me.
It's not that i feel i can't talk to you.
Its that i feel confused about how to say it.
i feel pathetic.
but you can always try.
Which was your most memorable birthday?
11/9/11 :') only one person would get this.
Why did it confuses you?
At why you don't feel you can talk to me?
Its what im doing. im trying.
My head its fighting between what i know and what i feel.
Im trying to do the best i can with everything but theres alot tgats killing me and no one sees it
That highly confuses me :(
Its like im slipping away into this dark place. A place where i know if i go i won't find a way back. Being alone with my thoughts is torture.
That's why you should talk!?
No your not. I don't know what it is. i remember being able to tell you everything.
So what's wrong then?
I want to talk and open up and tell you whats wrong but im struggling with everything. It hurts more now than it ever has
Why? I'm not difficult to talk to am I?
What have you been thinking about lately?
How things fit together.
When was the last time you hugged someone?
My mum this morning because I'm not well.
What would you love right now?
Either someone to senerade me in Spanish or Mexican? :')
I would make you a marshmallow boat in a sea of nutella with little spoon people to see you smile :) least you have to be lazy to get better, I'm lazy for the hell of it xD
Aww :') haha I can be lazy without reason though :O
I broke my own heart.
Aww ):
Then you know how i feel about myself :')
:/ aww.
Bonjour mon chalupa, I hope you feel better soon :)
I do too :( I feel so lazy!
Do you know what its like to be your own worst enemy?
Yes, I do.
Haha only because sometimes i wish i was the way i used to be.
:/
Can't believe you find it hard to believe i don't drink anymore :O
You said I wish so I assumed.. :o
supercalifratulisticexpealichalupa ;D
Really. This made me laugh!! XD
I'm sorry, I'll stop asking questions now.
Who is this? D:
Aww isn't he cute. What do you really think about him o_O
Who?
Have you not just asked him if you wanna hang out or that?
Why do you care? We talk calm yourself this sounds like you're trying to get this somewhere, he's cool but I don't know him very well we started speaking this month. He's a good friend but I don't fully know him?