Thank you so are you and am slowly stopping and am here for you too <3
Why did you turn to drugs, alcohol and cutting?
Because at the time it seemed like the best thing to do and it seemed like they were the only things that coupd help me in my time of need.
What acttualy happened to alex...?
She was my bestfriend and I was falling for her but I was with someone else. me and alex slept together one night when she came round to cheer me up and one thing lead to another that night. my girlfriend at the time found out and was really pissed at me. And around this time all I wanted to do is end everything and everytime I ever tried to kill myself alex stopped me. and because of my girlfriend me and alex stopped talking. The next week alex messaged me asking if I would meet her and I said yes. A week passed and the day came, in the morning she rang me and I picked kiya over alex for some reason. Half way through the day my mum calls me saying something has happened and I need to come home. When I got home alex's brother is stood there, he had been crying and then I knew what I had done. . . I had killed my bestfriend. She jumped in front of a car and was on a support machine. I ran out of my house back to kiya to find her all loved up with mikey, making me cry more. I went to the hospital and they said they couldnt save her. . . I watched them switched her off . . . I have cried everynight since because it was my fault... Three days later my ex girlfriend at the time killed her self. I havent been the same since.
Am here because my mother and father had sex and yeah so here I am. Am noy going anywhere . . . Well am just abiut to go out but you know whatever. Am not killing myself because of you pathetic cunts. Peace out pussy..