I feel like the hardest part of going through trauma is never being able to tell people the full extent of what happened because nobody wants to know the full details if any. So you are left with secrets and scars forever and no one truly knows the full extent of how badly you've been hurt.
Even if no one knows YOU know. Emphasis on “you”, love, you know what you’ve been through. Be empathetic towards yourself at the end it’s you who’s truly ever going to take care of yourself. Nothing shall remain forever, that includes pain too. Every experience will teach you something. Stay strong x
Honestly it is time you dip. You don’t need to DEAL with toxic people at all. People hardly change and you’ll end up hurting yourself so have the courage, build it, take your time and leave when you’re ready.
Self confidence is something I have lacked a lot growing up. Honestly surrounding yourself around people who appreciate you and hype you at your lowest does 50% of the work rest is on you, you need to realise that NO ONE can be you. NO. ONE. you’re unique. Find the root of your insecurities, work on them. And most importantly never trust anyone with your insecurities they’ll at some point use it to their advantage and have a great day, you deserve happiness and self love <3