Erin Wolf

Lemme tell you something. My friends are probably the people i love the most in my life. They have changed my life and helped shape who I am. I am there for them. Always. Day or night. By phone, email, text, or whatever it is they need.

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That is what it means to be my friend.

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I'm offering that to you too. I am offering to stand by your side as your friend and to care for you and let you be a part of my little world too.

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Because i won't commit to a romantic relationship with anyone right now isn't a reason to get upset, dear one.

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You had the courage to ask and that is worth being recognized for. Come off anon. I want to meet you.

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Please?

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You had the courage to ask me, and I gave you my answer, for the time being. I'm not in a place to be with anyone romantically...but I am ALWAYS looking for a worthy friend to join me.

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Come off anon. <3

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I'm trying to live my life to the greek standards of Arete': meaning "exellence in all things" or "Virtue"...basically "perfection"...perfection is not attainable, but it is the striving, the journey...or that "Living Quest" from which we learn our most important lessons in life.

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Also, I tend to take on more than I can "handle". Does that mean i screw it all up? No...well, sometimes. But it means i really stress myself out and frustrate myself. I'm working on that thought.

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I get sad, angry, upset...sometimes i just need a hug... As a friend of my mentor once said..."Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the 3 hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and Help me. Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile and see how much pain they may be in."

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The bit about "the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most"...that's me. It ain't easy dealing with depressed and suicidal kids. Especially since I was one of them less than a year or so ago...

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Honesty: I am very much an empath. i can feel emotion and the "color" of a person's thoughts...so when y'all are so distraught and upset that you want to kill yourselves, i can feel that pain like a physical punch to the stomach...i feel queasy and sick and get headaches. But if I can manage to get a smile back on your faces, then i feel light-hearted, loved, happy.

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I've got a bit of a sliver-tongue and, when my friends are in trouble, i'll find out what's going on, one way or another.

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I will fiercely defend my friends, family, and loved ones. I also take it upon myself to champion those who have no one to stand up for them...

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I dunno...i feel like...i'd be "hard to handle" for anyone really...even the gal i'm kinda in love with. I hate feeling like i'm burdening others with my troubles and empathic ability...it just feels selfish, cause i know i can deal with it on my own, you know? But having someone to talk to does make it easier now and then...the best thing though...

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A real hug. Long and tight and warm. I need a hug.

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The last hug I had was...weeks? Maybe a month ago?

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yeah. I haven't had hugz in a while...

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I dunno. I might share more, if you ask more questions... so go ASK!!!

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~ Wolf

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Because you aren't so different from me, or my ex, or some of my friends. You see, i will share with you my inspiration for why i so determinedly fight for people with depression:

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"it’s all just choices

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good ones, bad ones, happy ones, and sad ones

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it’s the lessons learned from them that’s most important.

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like me and my ex

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she inspired me to be a good person

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taught me that one person can make a difference

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granted, her choices lead her somewhere else

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but in those early days

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she was a very good person

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and her heart and kindness inspired me to fight for people with depression

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cause to me, every depressed person i see, i see her…her in all her innocence and beauty, and i cannot help but fight for people when i know that to someone else, they are like what my girlfriend was to me.

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inspiration."

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^

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That is how I can love you without meeting you. People are inherently beautiful and I can only ever see the good in them. I love you for who you are inside, for seeking help, for fighting against the dark of your own soul. That is worthy of love. YOU are worthy of love.

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I had/have Seasonal Affective Disorder/Depression, and I had suicidal thoughts, and i had a depressed girlfriend, and my friend who's like a brother to me has depression and my friend from the UK has depression, and so the list goes on... Does having the challenge of a mental illness mean you are not worthy of love??? NOT AT ALL. It means you need love that much more! <3

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Crying is a natural reaction, dear one. We all cry. I cry too. It means we are human. It means we feel emotions and that we care about something or someone or feel hurt. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Alright dear? Don't let fear of shame keep you from making your life better and safer.

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Of course i'll follow you back, dear.

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