My favourite kind of people are those who are blessed in some regard, be it anything, but they don't act supreme. They carry it well and my heart just goes asdfksks
People have been divided on almost everything. It used to feel strange to me how people would be unconsciously convincing me that their life choice is better than the other when simply asked about sth. It's not just confined to relationships. It's about everything. And by far the most sane thing I've learned is that it's all in your head. If you're at peace doing whatever you're doing, it doesn't matter how other people perceive you. You don't have to prove anything.
It just seems pointless to me that you should keep in touch with somebody jo apkay dil se utar gya ho. Bus jab dil hi nahi rha to kia contact karen or kia fake karen. I'd rather focus on the real ones close to my heart.
whats one small thing that you'd like to receive as a gift?🌚
There's this one thing that I've to talk about but I can't seem to find a suitable person for it. I mean, I have many amazing people in my life Alhamdulillah but it's like all of them have some kind of constraint one way or another. So yes, a limitless listening ear.
Mhmm so many thoughts. Kia likhen, kia na likhen? Have you ever felt that people tend to be more honest or less deceptive when they're exhausted. It's like their filters have slightly come off.
I've seen some hard times but one thing remains consistent. Soon after, when it's over and everything is good again, all that remains of the bad is just a distant hazy memory of a time long past. And eventually you're made whole; repaired, as if it were never there. It's remarkable really and reassuring too.
I jokingly sent a reply saying, 'okay😔' to my mum last night and fell asleep. She replied then and again in the morning with these beautiful hopeful messages and asking how I am. Where else does a person find this kind of love? Probably nowhere else. Be lucky if somebody else even comes close to this.
I've found real ones more than I've found toxic people. I probably didn't, I don't keep count, but they don't matter enough to be remembered to be included in the list. Alhamdulillah for that.
I've always loved this city for as far back as I can recall. My mind would go blank whenever I'd ask myself the reason. Bus ek ajeeb si affection. And I've been to many places far better and worse than this city. I've been a gypsy for a better part of my life haha And then I met this person and it just completed the puzzle. It's like your heart sometimes knows things before they've actually happened. Or maybe your souls are intertwined or destined to be together. The closest word I can come up with is 'destiny' for this. This was destined.
One of the underrated cons of not stalking and being creepy is that you don't have a reference to what you're talking about. "You like a girl? Okay show me her photo." Uh, I can't find her profile, or she removed that photo, or doesn't have a display anymore, or deactivated her account. Saw it on a story, disappeared now. Life struggles.
I was sitting with this guy and this news channel was on telling how six people from the same family were massacred recently in balochistan. The narrator was a woman. This guy goes like, "ek ghar se 6 janazay uth gaye lekin isne apnay sir pe dupatta abhi bhi nahi pehna hua." I know this was her personal choice and doesn't reflect her character. No relevancy but this guy felt it necessary to show his disdain. Other than that the guy is very nice and supportive. There for you when you need him to be. My point is that you can't possibly know what a person actually thinks. Now he spoke, so I came to know. But not everyone does. So it stays hidden. You can't possibly know. Which is especially dangerous when you're committing to spending a lifetime with somebody. All you can really see is the glistening smooth surface and the materialistic things but never inside their soul. Isi k lye hi Allah se manga karen.
You see, life is never linear. The problem arises when we start to see everything as a win or lose battle. Not getting married asap is not losing. Not getting some cool job is not losing. Not being able to afford tons of things is not losing. Not getting a loyal person is not losing. Similarly, dare I say, learning something about life is not winning. Achieving heights of self care is not winning. You can't have it both ways. You think you got over somebody, you won. But oh you didn't. I mean you even lost that love, that person. Other than that, now you'll see all the areas where you lost as well. Because it just comes naturally when you're counting your wins, your losses are always there at the tip of your tongue. Thek hai, 1 jagah jeet gaye, lekin 1 jagah haar bhi to gaye? This ratio might not be so kind at every point in your life. To each their own but, for me, winning-losing is a very drab concept. There's always a silver lining to every cloud and a mandatory cost to be paid for every good thing. So you're not really winning or losing at any point
When Attaullah Esakhelwi said, جب دیکھ لیا ہر شخص یہاں ہرجائ ہے اِس شہر سے دور اِک کُٹیا ہم نے بنائ ہے اور اُس کُٹیا کے ماتھے پر لِکھوایا ہے سب مایا ہے۔۔۔ سب مایاہے you didn't get that and it shows.
Life is... well, complicated lekin meri puri koshish rehti hai k zindagi men jo bhi mere mehrbaan rahay hen, kisi bhi trh se, who have been kind to me, had good times with me, loved me, been there for me, helped me, made sacrifices for me, beshak un se ab ta'aluq ho ya na rha ho, jahan tak life permit krti hai, I try to keep in touch with them, or at least make dua for them. That is the only beneficial thing you can do for somebody really. Regardless of their actions, even if those inadvertently or deliberately caused an ultimately good change in my life. I'm forever indebted for that kindness. I've come a long way and you will always be a part of it.
Kabhi ziada pareshan ho jao to us din ko soch lena jab tmhara Allah tmharay halaat badlay ga. That feeling of gratitude and fulfillment will be worth it, in sha Allah🙏🏻
Aap ne wahan tak jana hi kyun hai jahan apko achay or buray men se choose krna paray? The only way to be sure that you won't choose wrong is to never reach that crossroads where you'll have to make that choice.
I was just sitting in the lawn, a bit exhausted, and this very little cute kid, who can't even speak in full sentences yet, came up to me and said, 'feel better, feel better, feel better' and then nudged me a bit. I said I'm fine but then she ignored it and flew off😂 Kids do notice things, don't just do things to or in front of them thinking they're dummies.
I remember watching 2018's (yes, 2018) last sunset on top of this four storey building in despair, fear and hope but despair more than anything. The feeling of having something before and the loss of it. The helplessness. But if I do watch the last sunset this year, it'll be with more hope than anything. And belief.
Ever since this friend has told me that lack of sleep causes some problems in your cognitive and motor functions, whenever I make some mistake bcz of it, I'm like lmao damn motor functions😂
I think I've found my aphrodisiac perfume. You know the one that mixes with your body chemistry to form this intoxicating irresistible scent. But the thing is it has only worked on other men so far which kind of makes it a problem for me😂