#muslim

Even born as a muslim, right. I believe everyone must find islam by their own at some point in life.

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My family background is complicated and I wont say I am really close to my family.

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As a kid, i might have been influenced by how I see them. But I dont really practice and start finding islam by the age of 13. For context i have emotional trauma so i was more matured than people my age back then. Thanks to depression, i guess.

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One point in my life, i used to ask too if God is really there.

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Cut it short. My mom is religious ever since, my dad wasnt. He was just a muslim with bare minimum values (praying 5 times a day and fasting during Ramadhan)

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I am the 4th out of 6th child. I grow up understanding and taking values outside (at school and friends) rather than values at home. I understand what kind of trauma is at home and I protect my friends if i see familiar behaviours in them.
Bila tulis ni baru perasan betul eh I this is the biggest contribution my family in shaping my behaviour.

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I become protective because no one protected me as a kid. I become listener because no one listened to me as a kid. I become a writer because I have too much to talk about but forced to shut up. I become close and relied on God, because I have no one to rely on back then.
Sedihnya bila tulis ni semua. Hahaha

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🌷 I don't know how to start the story, just thinking about it makes me cry already.

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Anyhow, I'll give the background of the story first.... last 5th Jan this year was my Dad's (step-father) 1st death anniversary. I have booked my plane ticket to see him on the 6th Jan 2023, but I missed him by one day and wasn't able to say goodbye🖤

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On his last few days of fighting cancer, he was having trouble breathing (we suspected he contracted covid), I've asked a Muslim friend who lives close to them to bring some zamzam water. I've explained to my Dad what it's for. Actually, he has been taking blackseed as well for the past 3 years.

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My Mum told me that as soon as he drank the zamzam water, a lot of phlegm came out and he was relieved, alhamdulillah. He was able to breathe better and also got his taste back. He already had lost his sense of taste for months, hence he had lost his appetite. Then the next day he was smiling and enjoyed eating again and had asked my Mum to groom him like trimming his nails, shaving and he had a body wash. He was already looking forward to see us. But unfortunately he died that day around maghrib.

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This year on the 4th of Jan, I was feeling so down because the next day was his death anniversary. There were so many things I was thinking about, like what was the status of his faith before he died. I mean for the zamzam water to work, he would have atleast have the faith. Has he considered accepting Islam after witnessing such miracle or had he already done so by himself?

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While I was having all these thoughts in my head and wondering where is he (his soul).... I was doing situps in the bedroom, and then when I looked outside the window, over the mountains I saw the clouds that looked exactly like him. I cried because I missed him and wanted to see him so bad.

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Allahu alam why did the clouds took a shape of his face and what does it mean. But I was happy to see it♥️

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1142*2024*29*03

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It's All just the Start for the Doom's Day , The depths of Islamophobia that has been spread throughout the world the amount of hate is clearly visible as those monsters and their Supporters as trying to justify themselves and the world has been so brainwashed that they're supporting them ,can't say the whole world but atleast many of Them and some Indians are trying to justify their support to Israel which is just lame as Isreal itself declared that these people deserves to die ،Our hearts bleed out everday seeing them suffer and makes us guilty for living such a comfortable life which was stolen from people of Palestine but we can only do as much as praying for them sharing their posts and donating as much as position, also no action from the Muslim countries is also a big sign that this is the start of the (Qayamah)END .

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What I'm saying, anyone can see in the following example 👌🇪🇦💩 like Muslim countries or 🇦🇷🇵🇪 and others, They say that feminism is a separate lie, it only exists in the West, they say in Africa, Asia. . . . . In black Muslim countries feminism does not exist and there are more men than women in all those countries and they do not even have money and hundreds of millions of immigrants go to the West, (Latinas take their men from Spanish women but Spanish women are a joke🦊 anyone knows, they are prostitutes and everyone makes fun of them and women from other countries too and they pay attention to black and Muslim men even though they don't have money, beauty and don't treat them well, Western countries only They see that almost all their women 🦊 go with the plagues of men in African countries... and Asia, for example Russia used to be a rich country, now it is no longer! Men die and their women become prostitutes in Muslim countries that they are not even rich or good.

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Inmigrantes o personas feas de cualquier lado .The videos are what the ones I don't like look like 🔥 bye, the photos say what I also say ✨ the majority are 🦍🦊 in any country also because of those many immigrants, the majority are like plagues but more Muslims, blacks, Indians of India. , from South Asia, South America and others. Almost all 👌 Palestinians, instead of asking for help from other Muslim countries 🤔, ask for help from the West and leave as immigrants even though they hate Christians and 🇺🇸 that's why the United States is already full of ugly people (Women from various countries who go 🦊 to other cities or countries, for example, Russian women, while hundreds of thousands of Russian men die, it seems that in Latin America or South Asia and other places, in Sinaloa, men die and Sinaloan women go 🦊 they criticize that Russian woman just because she is Russian, they think that most Russians are🦊 also the same as those from other countries, in my state, millions of immigrants from Muslims, blacks, Africa, Asia, South America and other parts of the vrg and

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