#crushing

Because sometimes people want someone for all the wrong reasons, likes to hurt people emotionally, mentally instead of releasing them, reacting in a malicious an evil way. It says, does things that lure your heart in, it makes you develop strong feelings. Some people are impulsive with love, fall to quick with love. They think by looking at you, how you dressan how you talk an how your heart responds is someone thats similar to me, ends up falling hard with love.
Which isn't good because these people want to be loved, treated with respect. I'm actually one of those people. When I fall for a guy its head over heels, I become obsessed an foolish infatuated with him. I become vigorous , usually want to be heart of, noticed. Then I get all mushy, creative inside when I have a crush on someone. But usually my relationships end up short lived because what I want isn't something a girl should be chasing the guy, doing the work. Which is why I actually stopped doing that. When I was younger in high school I used to chase a guy, stick to one guy an then I become obsessed with him. Now it's I wanna know everything about you or be near you, flutter you with affection an attention. The problem is youre not my type, so back away. The nice thing is..I want to be noticed, you'll either want me or don't. Then..when I'm heart broken its boo boo, I'm sad. But hey..at least I tried, I got your attention. It didn't work out, but at least this person feels admired, happy that you found interest of crushing on me but its a no. Then you have the guys saying high..she's cute, yea..I will go out with her, slam I get dumped within a week. I'm getting to wrapped up, clingy an mushy to much. Bow the guy hates my temperament, doesn't get my mind. I sound nutty or owts not sharp witted of understanding me. Now.. I'm heart broken, looking for someone new or how about letting the guy come to you, chase you instead. Sometimes..a cougar goes better with a archer or a ram. Or maybe a water carrier or a Gemini or a Libra moon. Sometimes not knowing why you act the way you do..will eventually appear as you get older, actually find your twin that's kinda similar to your temperament. Sometimes its better for a guy to take the lead, show he's obsessed an into you.
Uh, I don't know. Why do you think you have? What's the reason why you shouldn't? Don't be ashamed to have feelings, unless they related to you, than that will be where ya draw the line. Don't do anything, and talk to a counselor about it if it's that. If it's just someone who's different qnd believes differently than you that's not the biggest deal as long as you agree on morals and religion. If it's your enemy than you'll figure it out. Just don't tell them. Short lived relationship are never good.

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This is what a "heart attack" aka ST elevation Myocardial Infarction (STeMI) looks like.

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This is from one of my pts we transported last week I believe.

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Adult male w worsening chest pain over 3 days came in to a local Emergency Department & was found to be experiencing 8/10 crushing chest pain with radiating pain down their arm. Their EKG showed elevation of their ST segment multiple contiguous leads indicating an acute Myocardial Infarction was occurring.

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Injury leads to Ischemia (inadequate blood flow) which becomes an Infarction (complete loss of blood supply). So a STeMI refers to the part of an EKG known as the ST segment being elevated (which indicates the presence of an infarct) & Myocardial meaning "heart (card) muscle (myo)" & the aforementioned Infarction or tissue death.

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This is bc an nSTeMI exists or Non-ST elevation Myocardial Infarction. This is a partial blockage or ischemia of the heart but not yet an infarct.

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This is a pic of our pt's heart & the coronary arteries that provide blood to the heart muscles (myocardium). A heart attack or MI is the reduction or complete cessation of blood flow through one or more of these vessels causing injury or infarct to the downstream & surrounding tissue.

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You can see the dye that was pushed into the coronary arteries & where it goes from dark to light & then back to dark. That is the actual blockage of the artery. In this case I believe it was the Left Anterior Descending Artery of the Left Main Coronary Artery.

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And that is why you should take care of your health, take chest pain seriously, & call 911/local Emergency services for help if you think you are having a heart attack.

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Remember: heart attacks can present differently between men & women.

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Males present w the well know "crushing" chest pain or describe it as an "elephant" on their chest with radiating pain to their jaw and/or arm. This pain does NOT get better w rest/antacids.

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Women: indigestion, back pain, jaw pain, chest discomfort

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"It surprises me, seeing you here" - Your fingers left prints on your pint glass, and you bore no malice when you said it.
"I always expected you to come back to the city. "

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And I got it. I did. I do. When you knew me, before we said "enough," my lungs were full of the city. My eyes were the grey of Thames river smog. My hands were granite cold, my thoughts flitted away from you before you could touch them. I had a car alarm heart that kept you awake. And when you kissed me, you tasted all of this things that I never said.

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"You just seemed so at home there." You were folding a crisp packet into the tiniest space imaginable, crushing it into the gap in the pub table. It struck me that no, I had never been at home in the city. It was a lover I had spent illicit, starless nights with before swearing to never do it again. I had dressed different, spoken different, kissed different. London had left me with a full heart but empty hands. When I tipped my head back, the night sky was oppressive, polluted and ochre.

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You, though.

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You had dragged me across bridges in the middle of the night. Breathless with laughter, you had said "Look!" and pointed to how the night lights reflected on the Thames. We slow danced to shit Radio 1 whilst the world tore on around us. We draped delusion around our shoulders to keep us warm, like we could outrun the inevitable.

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"I wasn't." I replied. "My home was you."

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all my school life i was bullied,

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guess what i was not bullied by the students, i was bullied by teachers.

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crushing my confidence each day, they used to make fun of me, my appearance, my grades and make each kid in the class laugh.

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cuz i was not a kid who loved art!

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no matter how much i try, how good i learn, to make my impression better.

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i couldn't speak i had this fear of public speaking, i had no confidence to even speak what i learned all day.

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& just because i had brown parents who would not mind whipping ass of their own child for any other person on this planet.

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& parents who trusted people more than me.

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even if i answer 5 questions they would like to tease me by asking 5 more.

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just to make sure i have this note on my diary for not answering the last answer.

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time passed.

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trust me i hate my school, i hate my teachers, i hate everybody i met in school, i hate every memory i have from school.

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i wish one day i wake up and that episode of misery disappears from my memories ! 🌚🥀

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Go on a day trip and eat at a restaurant that I've never been to before or head to the mountains and get away from everything.
Get on a train. Head north east til you get to the mitten. Get yourself the greatest hot dog you have ever had and look at some large bodies of water and light houses.
Pack a rucksack with a few essentials and take off up into the mountains away from society away from the two faced self opinionated condescending hypocrites we refer too as colleagues n neighbours, away from the hustle n bussel,unwind in the peace that is nature.
Anything to get my mind off the truth that life will inevitably end and the soul crushing realization that I have no significant other to share what fleeting moments we both have, so I learn and keep my brain going at a hundred percent.
Might sound boring but I like to start by driving my wife to work and my son to daycare. Come home and take the dog for a long walk. Then spend a few hours getting the house in order. After that I might play some games for a while or watch a movie. The head out to pick up the family in the afternoon. Perfect.
Ok, this probably won't apply to you, but my days off changed after having kids. Now I have a 3 year old who doesn't give me (hardly) any time to myself. That's ok though because I love spending time with her. My days of sleeping in are long gone and I can barely finish a TV episode much less finish a video game. Today, I get my enjoyment from watching her smile as she holds on to a swing. Or, listen to her laugh as I make funny faces while singing her a kids song. Or, watch her stare intently at a book that I'm reading. Or, see her run through a park without a care in the world. She makes living life more enriching than I could have possibly imagined. I look forward to every day off more than I ever had before kids.
It depends on the weather and my mood. Amazon Prime has a treasure trove of really corny 90’s TV movies. Today I watched Gary Cole (dude who plays Bill Lumbergh in “Office Space”) play a high school teacher who is sleeping with a student played by the oldest daughter from “The Nanny.” It’s awful, but in a good way.
Before I had my kids I liked to be productive on my days off. Now when I get a chance to be away from the kids I just want to sleep. I have the day off today as well. So far I slept in, walked to a cafe and got breakfast and then took it to the park with a couple of books and colored pencils. I read or colored for a few hours. Then walked and saw some cool birds. Am now back back in my apartment and considering dusting or playing music. I kind of just go where the mood takes me on a day off.
My favorite way to spend a day off is by just staying inside and relaxing. Sometimes I go into town and meet up with my friends or go to the park and read a book.

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The initial attraction is the same, but the approach to starting a relationship is vastly different. Generally, I find guys easier to talk to because we're usually starting from a similar frame of reference and there's less social baggage to untangle before we can be comfortable around each other. The trouble is actually staying in a relationship because a lot of guys seem to only be interested in the short term or even just one-nighters. I'd love to find a snuggly gent and settle down some day. Women are a much harder nut to crack socially, but as a relationship it is easier to fall into something serious so long as you're compatible. Its also easier in public because you don't spend as much time second guessing the looks from strangers. The day-to-day is harder because of different expectations from each of you, but when it works it is really nice. Definitely not. As a girl, I've been attracted to other girls for my entire life without even realising it. I don't find men attractive in the slightest, but since my crushes are 9/10 times male, I don't think I can call myself a lesbian. It's like my instincts are playing cupid, I find myself crushing on a guy who has no obvious redeeming qualities and it's useless.
For me it’s kinda the same and kinda different. I’m a woman and I’m generally attracted to boyish soft butch types and big cuddly teddy bear types regardless of gender, so the people I catch feelings for tend to all be sort of gently masculine. Above all, I’m attracted to kindness. Actual gender plays a much smaller role for me than for a lot of other bi folks, at least in my limited experience. When it comes to actual deep feelings, to generalize I’d say the love I feel for women is a bit more comforting, whereas the love I feel for men is a bit more dynamic. It really does depend on the individual person and our particular chemistry, though.
I definitely gravitate more to women, and I have found a deeper connection with women as well. I just feel I was better able to emotionally connect with a woman than I was a man. I’ve definitely fallen in love with a woman, but don’t know if I have with a man yet.
I think it's just easier for me to date men because it's what I'm used to, and also the women I'm attracted to aren't usually into women. Plus my family wouldn't approve, so a relationship would have to be worth risking my relationship with my parents and a couple of my siblings and that's a lot of pressure right off the bat. I feel like with women it's easy to care about them and develop really kind feelings towards them. I find that it's easier for me to develop romantic feelings with guys and more empathetic ones (?) with girls straight off the bat. I've never had a romantic relationship with a girl because I find it difficult to effectively get there. I do know I'm attracted to them though. With guys it's more immediate and makes sense at the time.

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It depends on what you mean by crush...? For me crush is like when you're infatuated with someone, you like how they look, how they carry themselves, you find them attractive, you want to be with them... And more often than not it doesn't really last long. Maybe for a long time bit eventually it goes away if it doesn't turn into anything more.
I don't feel that way about people. If I "like" someone in the romantic sense I don't necessarily want to be with them, I just care a lot for them. I want to help them, do things for them, make them happy, I want to see them smile, and that's it. They don't have to look good. I mean I don't see an attractive person and start liking them. I just see them once and scroll past. I don't remember any guy who's looks have ever struck me. I just don't care much.

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